As life has become so mechanical,
we tend to overlook our emotions and thereby limit our
own growth. Though all of us seek to break free from
the shackles of emotional confinement, it is easier
said than done. We are forever bound by social confinements,
which lead us to suppress our emotions and lead the
life of silent spectators in search of liberation, freedom
and enchantment. It is what it is and it is how it is-our
journey towards the self never ends-or it ends up in
despair, if we strain the strings.
People tend to mask their real emotions but fail to
satiate the self. It becomes obligatory to laugh when
not willing and cry when not wanting to. It's an emotional
ecology that runs in tandem with the real world. The
self deception goes a long way- we wear veils upon veils,
tell lies upon lies, we fabricate forgeries upon forgeries
and trick our inner-selves with moribund possibilities.
But people fail to accept this fact and we end up living
like strangers to the self. It is always hard to accept
the truth, the defeat.
All these emotions are reflected in our own visage.
Every loss cuts across the soul. Happiness also transforms
our expressions. No human can hide his impulses. People
strive in vain to confine their true feelings, to restrict
these emotions from soaring out into the open. But it
is just a matter of time; the truth unfolds sooner or
later and it all appears in the face. An avid eye can
read these details. I can see it all hidden in the faces-good
times and bad times. I have tried to express those very
sentiments through this art exhibition. Please accept
my-"Unexpressed Expression" (Avyakta Avivyaktrharu).
I have tried to scratch beneath the surface where people
store their emotions. I have tried to unravel the untold
stories. The black line serves as the representation
of emotions limited within virtual limits. Colours and
textures add detail to the enigma of human existence.
I strive to find more details, more answers and I often
get caught in the in-between situations. I feel a kind
of suffocation- my release comes with these turbulent
feelings spilling out on to the canvas. I erase some
of these feelings and retain some on canvas. I learn
from these experiences and forget some.
I remember sketching on the floor and creating the resemblance
of Lord Ganesh on a pile of sand during childhood. I
used to associate art with creating replicas of objects
during my early college days, at Lalit Kala Campus.
But these perceptions were to change over time. Even
as a budding artist, nature had a big impact on my art.
I used to get baffled after each sketch, wondering what
would follow next and how I could take my art further.
The gravity and beauty of the unspoken myths and mysticisms
of temples and traditional architectures dominated my
mental frame for quite a while. This recurring feeling
led me to take part in art exhibitions and workshops,
which exposed me to the dynamics of the art field.
One particular art work, done on Nepali paper with charcoal,
earned me appreciation from the art fraternity. This
really inspired me to work harder. The subsequent exhibition,
'Sampada', which involved works of the same medium,
proved to be the biggest stepping stone of my artistic
career. I came to realise that expressions had less
to do with formal education but more with observation
and evaluation. An artist is an isolated performer and
artistic talent cannot be extracted from books. It cannot
be confined within limits and cannot be named. You cannot
describe artistic freedom in words, as words are never
enough to mirror your thoughts. It is due to this fact
that I have not been able to give titles to the works
presented here.
Much of these works have feminism in focus but I would
like to make it clear, that the core motive of my art
is not advocacy. Being a woman myself, these sentiments
have surged out of me and find expression in my canvases.
These are my silent observations and I trust that my
paintings, communicate some of these very sentiment
to you.